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Konnichiwa!

Doing grand i hope?

Man what a day! Made an effort to get up early today so i wouldnt be rushing like crazy and running the 2 miles to catch my bus - so instead of getting up at 11am to get the 12 bus i got up at 10.30...but oh no, i just had to spend that extra half hour on the FRICKEN INTERNET! I swear this thing is sapping my life away!

It doesnt help that i got a credit card almost a fortnight ago. I've been wasting every penny online, subscribing to Livejournal, DeviantArt, buying stacks of games off [link] at like £120 a time, every 4 days xD My mum has been doing backflips over the amount i'm spending! *rubs hands together* But i'm 18 this Sunday, that means even more money O__O;

I'm not greedy...just, needy! xD

I now have wayyy too much choice with my 360 games. I'm getting a new game every few days (and i'm not exaggerating!) and i'm having to stop playing one to play another and its driving me insane having so much choice! Its stupid becuase i'm complaining as if i'm having this inflicted upon me, but i'm doing it all to myself!

And friends...i dont need them just now. Had enough of them. Absolutely sick of them not accepting the word 'No'...i dont wanna go out and do stuff every night, i just wanna have a few peaceful nights in, i only get Sundays off, give me a break! I really am gonna explode next time they beg me to come out and nag when i say 'no', its stressing me out and i'm actually losing sleep over it! I find myself dragging along my tired body into town every night to go clubbing or heading up to the cinema just to please my friends. Ok, i knew they liked me, but i get the feeling they cant seem to love without me! I'm not being big-headed, its just if someone always wants to do stuff with you and nearly breaks down when you cant it gets kinda worrying! Q__Q'

Bah, i've gotta forget about it all and just get on with life! I'm loving work and college and can happily live without friends for a while! Plus Crimbo is soon, yay! I LOVE giving to people, not so keen on receiving cos i'm so picky and take everything back, but i just love seeing people's faces light up when they receive what they want! Roll on the days when i have kids and i buy them every present they could ever imagine! xD

Is it wrong that i'm getting these maternal feelings? 'Ofcourse it is! Your a fucking man!' i hear you say...but REALLY, i want kids so bad! I wanna have someone to look after, someone to buy things for, someone who's life i can influence! Grrr, i need to get some hot chick laid...fast!

Long lie in tomorrow, and i can get up to my latest game order coming in the post. Call of Duty 4 and Scene it, along with a FFIII strategy guide to help me pass these fucking annoying shitty parts that take me ages to figure out. Roll on tomorrow!

The worst part about this week is the fact that i'm getting all my pre and real assessment results back, scary stuff, especially when in my course if you fail twice on a single test you've failed the whole course! o__o;

Anyway, i better stop boring you all, i'm sure you have beds/boxes to go to!

Sayonara!

♥